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cheerios in heat vents

if you were to look inside my house, you'd see evidence all over of the little girl who lives here.  her playroom, once upstairs in our third bedroom, has now replaced our dining room. big cube organizers filled with craft supplies, little people, magna-tiles, barbies, princesses, and puzzles, take up the spaces along the walls. a hot pink nugget couch and pink play kitchen and vanity, break up my organic modern decor.  all little pieces of the childhood my husband and i are slowly creating for her, coming to life right in front of our eyes.  no matter where we go in the house, she leaves a trail of her things behind, a little reminder of her small, but huge presence.  and i wouldn't have it any other way. nick and i prayed for times like these - to be able to fill our home with the things our children love. and while it took some time, heartbreak and a lot of grief to get here, we now have a little miracle child running through the halls of this home, leaving her ma...

welcome to every mess matters

i created this space mostly for myself, as a way to put my thoughts and experiences with motherhood somewhere other than my social media pages. i have so much to say, so much to talk about when it comes to being a mom, and have up until now, used platforms like Instagram and Facebook to do that. i put up my horrible attempt at an aesthetic picture (for who? me?) and then post a ridiculously long caption about how beautiful motherhood is, just for the same five family members to comment about how my words have touched their hearts. in the same breath that i'm letting their words give me a  temporary high of pride, i'm aggravated with my daughter for not falling asleep after an hour of me trying to put her down. she's crying,  i'm crying, everyone is crying and just like that, i'm feeling like this is the hardest and most exhausting job of my life. motherhood is so beautiful isn't it? not always.  i'm here to admit that. don't get me wrong - i have LOVED t...